I think everyone who works at this company hates me. I don't know why. Sure, I could think of a million and one reasons to hate me but they don't know me well enough to know all that stuff. The people in the mailroom like me. But that's all. Accounting, payroll, administration, even one of the tech support guys - they all hate me. I don't know what I did. I don't know anyone who works here, so what could I have done? Everyone will go on and on in great detail about how nice so and so is and how he/she will always get right back to you and answer all your questions. But when I call them up and ask for help I get hung up on, an attitude, or even worse...voicemail!! They don't return my phone calls or my emails or anything. What could I have done to get people so annoyed? I can be rather pleasant when given a chance. I swear.
Maybe I am just being narcissistic and it is all just a coincidence and bad timing. Maybe it has nothing to do with me at all. Maybe there is something about my internal body clock that knows exactly when to call people at the worst possible time. Maybe that is why they always cop a 'tude. Maybe I just always call or email when they have reached their limit with everyone else and are so fed up with their job they are forced to be an ass to the next person who calls, which is inevitably me. I sure hope that's it because I don't particularly like the idea of an entire department hating me. Or anyone for that matter. Like I said I can be rather pleasant when given the opportunity. I always say please and thank you.
I had a little run in with a woman from accounting. That is what led to this post. Not really a "run in" per se but she made it very clear I was the last person she wanted to be talking to. She also made it VERY clear that not only was I extremely annoying but I would be the person she talked about when she was telling her husband she had a bad day. Since Matt is a partner now he and I are left to figure out all the intricacies of client billing. I called with a few questions but she didn't want to help me! No one will help! No one. I have a thousand questions but they hang up before I can even finish the first. Yes they are busy, but how do they expect me to learn anything if they don't teach me. Don't you think it would be better to answer a question once then have me call back a million times?
With this whole partner thing, all of a sudden overnight I have a whole new set of responsibilities. My name isn't going on any letterhead so why should I be stressed about it? If you didn't know by now I am not to keen on responsibility at this job. It all just seems like a colossal waste of time. But I want to help Matt out in whatever way possible but I have no idea what I am doing. I hardly even know enough about billing to even ask the right questions. I feel so useless - even more than usual.
On top of figuring out how to bill clients, now I have to create a new file. Sometime between now and the end of the month I have to get a folder and mark it with the client name, then put it in a cabinet. I get exhausted just thinking about it. I currently don't have any folders the right size, or the right labels. So I have to order all that, then find room in a cabinet. Blah. How did I get so fucking lazy? Let this be a lesson to all you kids out there. What lesson? I don't know something about not taking a job at a law-firm or something.
Today went by fast, I can't believe it is almost time to go. I am still recovering from a massive paper cut I received yesterday from some 10-K's or whatever it is called. And I am trying not to let the effects of the large Cherry Coke I ordered at lunch become visible to the people in the office. I was a little on edge to begin with this morning because of all this nonsense with accounting now add caffeine and sugar to the mix. I can hardly think straight. I feel like I could do cartwheels down the hall. Do you think you can get fired for that? My one work friend got fired and they gave her two weeks severance pay. So maybe when I find a new job instead of quitting I will pull a George Costanza and do a bunch of crazy things to try and get fired. It is pretty hard to get fired around here though, and I don't think I would want that on my record.
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