vacation's over

Back to work. It feels like I am the only person who decided to show up. Well, me and the people I work for of course. They never take vacation. It was quite wonderful to have four days in a row where I didn't have to set my alarm. It wasn't easy getting up this morning. I am not quite sure why. I have no problem waking up at 8:00am on my days off, but ask me to do it on a day I have to go to work. Out of the question. It makes no sense at all. I get all excited that I can sleep all day on my vacation and I am up with the sun. I of course force myself back to sleep for another couple hours, but sometimes that proves to be difficult. But on a morning I actually have shit to do and I need to get up I can't. Go figure.

Today got off to a bit of a rough start. I read something the other day that said suffering was good because it just helped you get rid of bad karma, so I will just chalk it up to that. I am doing a really good job getting rid of bad Karma lately. The word suffering is probably not the right word, I am not really "suffering". Perhaps I should use the words inconvenienced, annoyed, upset? Now that I am making good progress getting rid of bad Karma I am going to do my best not to create anymore. It's gonna be a whole new me.

Getting rid of bad Karma thing #1: I passed some man on the street this morning and a thought crossed my mind, which to avoid further embarrassment I will not repeat here. It wasn't a bad mean thought just a thought one probably shouldn't have. I'll leave it at that. Two seconds later I proceeded to trip on the sidewalk. No, there wasn't anything sticking up or a big crack or something, I just tripped over nothing. I didn't fall or anything but I definitely made one of those loud girly squeaking noises. It was embarrassing but I am sure I deserved it. I definitely wont be thinking what I was thinking for a while.

Getting rid of bad Karma thing #2: I was coming out of the bathroom and as I pulled the door towards me to open it, I somehow managed to smack myself in the face with it. Who knew I could open a door with such force? How fucking stupid is that? I hit myself in the head with a door. I thought I had mastered the whole opening and closing door thing when I was like 5, but I guess not. I am pretty tough so although it hurt and was red for a little while I don't think it is going to leave a mark. Sure glad no one saw that one. I am not exactly sure what the bad Karma was for but I am sure I deserved that too.

Getting rid of bad Karma thing #3: Once I got in I saw some files the needed to be filed in Matt's office. I figured I should just get off my ass and do a little work. It wasn't as bad as I had imagined. It is just so hard to work up the motivation to do anything around here, or anywhere for that matter - but once I do, not so bad. It only took a few seconds. But I fear there will soon be more. He is cleaning out a bunch of stuff in his office which I guess is good for him, but bad for me. Not to say I care whether or not he cleans out his office but I can see his office from my desk. He is up and down and all over the place. Every time he stands up I get that panicky feeling like he about to give me work to do. I get all worked up only to have him sit back down. I like it when they keep their doors shut. He has already given me about a million things to send out to various places. But I like him so I do it with a smile on my face. But I guess none of that is bad Karma - it is just my job.

I also got some good Karma today.

Good Karma thing #1: It's true folks the chicken soup I like is back at Hale and Hearty again.

Good Karma thing #2: Andy gave me a belated holiday card and said that I was too good for this job. I already knew that but it was very nice of him to tell me so.